Saturday, March 28, 2009

Prologue?

I guess it all began on that day. Or should I even say began? When does something really start? Is it when something occurs? Is it when you accept the fact that you are involved? Well, if that's the case, then that means it didn't really begin that day, per se, but I guess that's when I noticed it.

I saw it on a lonely electric pole at the end of a cul de sac in quiet neighborhood near the college. It was a scroungy piece of shitty paper on the street light. I thought it was one of those "Lost My Dog" notices with a shitty picture of a dog. I sometimes see stray dogs and thats when I wish that I actually took my time putting the poor owner's number in my fucking phone. If I actually did find a stray dog, not only do I get the reward, but I can look like a true humanitarian. Although when it really comes down to it, I might not accept the money. By not accepting the money, I can make myself feel real good; real good about myself. I like that feeling of moral satisfaction you can give to yourself. If I were a fucking psychologist I'd call it something like a ethical masturbation. You know, you just do it make yourself feel good inside.

Anyways, enough about fucking masturbation. Back to the fucking paper. This shitty paper didn't have a fucking dog picture. It had no picture as a matter of fact. It said:

SUICIDE HELPER
Do you feel like killing yourself?
Are you bored with life?
Do you wanna die?
Can't do it alone?

We'll help you!

Call this number
(xxx-xxx-9809)

Remember people die alone!
You don't have to do it alone!

Isn't this shit illegal?